Silent Tears -- Me

The tears I shed so copiously
have dried so soon
and yet the ones i stifled
within my heart
will never leave me
they say more unshed
....unsaid
than any crying out
can ever hope to say

Requiem -- Robert L. Stevenson

Under the wide and starry sky

Dig the grave and let me lie.

Glad did I live and gladly die,

And I laid me down with a will.

This be the verse you grave for me;

"Here he lies where he longed to be,

Home is the sailor, home from sea,

And the hunter home from the hill."

'Even You' -- Me

Thank you
first for all the sweet memories
for that day when I stood looking at you
and you turned back
and smiled

for in that moment
everything faded away
nothing seemed to matter
and i realised how beautiful a feeling it is
to love someone so much
that you dont care
and every little thing which seemed so big fades away

I now know that I will not love you forever
though as far as I will
It will be true

I bury my love
and will continue to visit its grave
until one sunday it rains
and I am afraid to soil my shoes
and I stay home and read
because time can make everything trivial

even life
even love
even you

My Mind does not Give up -- Me

Sometimes when I see no one
I mock my own idea of fun
I ask wrong questions
In the hope
They have no answers

I am so afraid
There is nothing else to say
I think I love hate
I cant leave anything to fate
My mind does not give up

My ears still hear the echo
Telling me I am a survivor
I knew no other way
Now that there is nothing to fight
My heart cannot see the light

I try to climb up a notch
Everyday
The ladder of self contempt
While I look for some role
Not staring at the darkness

I have my lonely days
When I focus on the haze
Its always about I
This world
I don’t even want to try

Its easy to hate everything
Say that my thoughts go deep
And that my soul is crying
I cant make you laugh
Why did I take this leap

Its easy to stop loving
You are so much me
I can just hate myself
But when I look at you
I don’t know what to do